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| the worst contradiction is felt when you have him
sitting right in front of you, talking, laughing and doing all sorts of
crazy things... and you ask yourself? why not? and you learn that the
same reason why you can... is actually the same reason why you still
cannot...
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| so how long has it been? 3 mos? i dont know.. im not keeping track of
the date... i decided to finally get over my past... (wushu) inde
promise... i am... eh kasi i feel like im a doormat... parang if he
needs me im there... if i need him hes nowhere to be found... the
feeling sux... so i tried to contemplate about things and un thats what
i got... a big blinking batok... saying "hey stupid! he doesnt like
you, he just needs you!" what the?! its like the worst thing next to
falling out of love... and yeah... im not so sure about this one... but
im getting waaaaah!!! i dont want to say it... i dont even want to
think about it... i dont want to cry again... just the thought of it
scares me to death...
clue : im afraid to lose him... im afraid that if i tell him...
somethings going to change... but i dnt want to ruin something so darn
beautiful...
im cursed with an ideology... a principle that goes all the way down
memory lane... its so old school, but im afraid that if i change it...
jai would no longer be the jai that people know...
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| just came home... i went to joans bday bash yesterday at skytowers...
it was hella fun... i drank a lot... hehehe... gosh... i never thought
im going to see him there... grabe even after we left, i was still
fucking stuck up on him... gosh his smile... its just so
irresistable... if i could just paint it... it would be my grandest,
most beautiful masterpiece... hes like... hmmmm.... rb... hehehehe...
and yeah, he danced with me... astig... hes so cute the way he did the
70's dance... awwww fuck i think im in-love again!
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| hmmm what happened ba... actually sige what happened recently... haaaay
theres nothing too special to telll... enihoo... foodtrip kami ni
ate... from the fort... where we ate at mc donalds, we went to g4 to
buy wedding stuffs... im gonna get married!!! just kidding... ;)
enihoo... after buying what we need... we went to greenbelt to eat
naman at gonuts... yum yum... and si pa kami contented so we ordered
gelato... oui oui j'aime fraise...Ü kaia aun... everything i ordered
ata and ate today had strawberries in it... or more or less strawberry
tlga sia... hehehe... ay later again cos theres barbecue pa hehehe...Ü
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